.... I love her. I've always loved her. I don't know what happened to make me try to run off with... him. Touga. My God, I don't even want to think about it. I'm just... glad Kozue told me what was going on before we actually tried to run away together.

I'm running away tonight with Touga.

Don't look for me, Kozue. Utena. Or anyone.

I have no idea what's going on with my friendslist but I'll send some orange blue roses to the funeral.

... Awhile ago Oguna came over again and we watched Gladiator. A couple of the girls from the fencing team had gotten me chocolates for Valentine's Day and we ate those while we watched. It was nice.

I didn't bother asking Juri out for Valentine's Day.

Oguna and I watched Kill Bill a couple days ago. I think he really enjoyed it.

I... don't agree with this video from my fandom, but oh, well. At least Juri looks as lovely as always in it, at any rate.



We have new people again. ;) I'm Tsuchiya Ruka, old captain of the fencing club at Ohtori. It looks like most of you newcomers... play tennis.

It doesn't feel finished, but ( I wrote something. Touga, you're in it, too. )

... Oguna... thank you for the... sex doll. It was... well. Er.

... At least it had orange hair.

... Anyway. I haven't greeted the newcomers. I apologize. Tsuchiya Ruka, ex-captain of the fencing team at Ohtori Academy. ;) I don't think there's really that much else to say about me.

School is going well and no one's put any more doctored songs in my locker. I wish things would go better with Juri, but... I-- I think this year is probably looking up, regardless. :) I'm glad for it.

Whoever it was that put this... doctored song in my locker (... I'm betting Touga but it might've been Saionji), I'm not particularly amused.

I feel you, Johanna JURIIIIIIIIIIII
I feel you.
I was half convinced I'd waken,
Satisfied enough to dream you. Too much hospital meds had dreamed you.
Happily I was mistaken,
Johanna. JURIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
I'll steal you, Johanna. JURIIIIIIIIIIII
I'll steal you.

I'll steal you, Johanna, JURIIIIIIIIIIIIII
I'll steal you.
Do they think that walls lesbianism could hide you?
Even now, I'm at your window. sleeping with Shori~
I am in the dark beside you,
Buried sweetly in your yellow orange hair!
I feel you, Johanna, JURIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
And one day I'll steal you!
Til I'm with you then,
I'm with you there,
Sweetly buried in your yellow orange hair!

I'm not Anthony. And Juri.... well.

Touga, my opinion of you and your harem hasn't changed.

Juri's actually going to eat lunch with me tomorrow.

Of course, it's more her being polite than anything, and Shiori eats lunch with her most days so she'll be sending me death glares the entire time (not that I really blame her), but still. Juri sort of scoffed when I mentioned that.

Oguna, I sent you a Christmas card.

New people, I'm Tsuchiya Ruka, ex-captain of the fencing team at Ohtori. ;) Nice to meet you. I'm going to try to be more active on Brawl from now on.

It's been a week and a half since I've posted. School's kept me pretty busy lately. My teachers say I shouldn't work myself too hard since I've just gotten back, but I'm trying to make up for lost time.

I've done as much fencing as I really can without straining myself. I told Juri not to bother stepping down from her position as captain again; there wouldn't be any point, and she deserves it. I'm not sure if I'll ever get back to quite the level of swordsman I was before I got sick, but only time and practice will tell. Either way, I can't say I mind helping the other fencers with their stances. ;)

It'll be Christmastime in less than a month. This one might be something to look forward to. :)

I saw this meme going around and felt like doing it myself, so here's ( 25 song lyrics )

Sunday night didn't happen, by the way.

I started back at school today. It was great to be back. I don't think Juri looked nearly as much like she wanted to stab me as I figured she would be. I'm going to end up having to take a couple of remedial courses, probably, to make up for all the school I've missed, but that'll be all right. Especially if I can pick my own tutor. ;)

I may or mya not be a litle bit high on anastheshia. acutlaly i thnik I am the keys ar rely quiet sticke todya

but anywya the opration was a sucess :D i awanted to cal juri and tel her that i was coming bak to scool but the nursse sed i was stil to doped up to cal her. :( but i just KNO touga didnt tell her i was coming bak. Touga wanst me all to himself or something. eww. its not my falt i'm hotter then saionji.


juri juri juri juri &harst; &harts; &har;st!! I kno thta i was a bastrd before but i sware this time wil be difernet. i gave you a mircle rite? may be you'll give me one now thta i'll be bak i hop so. i hope so.

The nurses should take my computer away from me until after I'm not doped up.

Last night never happened.

I win.

I'll be back at Ohtori as soon as humanely possible.

...

This site scares the hell out of me.

I really would rather not be psychoanalyzed. Is this what fandom's all about? I must be a masochist.

The nurses are starting to wonder why I suddenly have absolutely nothing to talk about beyond the weather, Oguna.

Kozue, thanks for the Halloween present. ♥ And An-chan, I appreciated the cookies.

The roses I got are wilting and now they look sort of ridiculous. Do you think it shows too much of the hopeless romantic in me to try pressing them, even though I'm almost positive Juri didn't send them? Probably.

They upped a couple of the dosages of my medications, but it hasn't quite kicked in yet, so if I start typing weird or acting strange soon... well. Expect it. XD

But anyway, the main reason I wanted to post is this poll.

Poll #1078933
Open to: Friends, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 5

Do the ends justify the means?

My answer's probably obvious, but I wanted to see what everyone else thought.

I snuck out of my room today, mostly just to see how far I could get. Unfortunately I was caught pretty quickly and the nurses actually ran and got a wheelchair to wheel me back in. When I told them they didn't have to be that concerned, they just smiled. I think I heard one of them whisper something about my "cavalier attitude" under her breath. And one of my aunts came to see me a little afterwards. She kept on with the "oh, poor Ruka" routine for the entire duration. And then saw the flowers and Juri's letter on the table and came to the obvious, incorrect conclusion.

"Oh, but you've got a sweetheart, haven't you?! That--that's something, right, dear?"

I didn't have the heart to lie since she seemed like she was about to start sobbing.

Oh, well.

Anyone else feel up to visiting me? ;) Kozue? Touga, even. Anyone. Obviously I'm not getting out of here anytime soon, and I've never been one to mind company. Rest assured I'll kick you out if you start with the "poor Ruka"'s, though.

I hope that whoever sent a dozen roses to my hospital room wasn't Akio. Was it anyone here?

Anyway, the nurses have been sweeter than normal to me lately to me because of it and sort of turned a blind eye to me using my laptop. Not so much of the "your condition, Ruka-san, you should rest and not stay up on that thing" stuff, as though I don't know. But in the meantime, I wrote a drabble.

( 'Necromancy' (OOC: Ruka/Shiori, PG-13, sexual implications) )


I was going for realism.

And I found one for Touga, since knowing him, he probably feels left out because he didn't get to have sex with me in mine. I told you I was a good person at heart. ♥

I would've found one for you, too, Kozue, but I'm really not into twincest, no offense.

I got a letter from Juri today.

Which makes finding this fanfic... crap a little more bearable.

I keep antagonizing asking the nurses if Juri's sent me any letters. I haven't heard from her since I had to leave school again.

... She probably hates my guts. I can't exactly say I blame her.

Anyhow. I'm Tsuchiya Ruka, from the Utena fandom. I used to be captain of the fencing team at Ohtori Academy and an on-again off-again student council member. I'm seventeen, in my second year of high school.

The hospital's a far cry from the Academy, definitely, but I can't complain too much; the nurses are pretty cute, and they miss me when I'm not there. ;)

Okay, one question for everyone.

Do you believe in the power of miracles?